we were both young when i first saw you...

it may not be as long as yours

but it means just as much

i did cry while writing it

and i am not finished with you yet

all I'm saying is watch your back around me

i hurt you, really? I'm pretty sure you did most of the damage in this relationship buddy. eighth grade you loved me right, yeah well i felt the same. i seriously gave you everything, every single thing i had to give to someone i gave you and you changed your mind about me. yeah it did mean something that i lost my virginity to you but it's not something i like to think about considering i did everything in my power to keep you including giving you my virginity and you decided it wasn't enough. yeah it fucking hurt me and honestly i think it was more than you hurt now considering i didn't get over it for months and i actually did try to kill myself and spent days in the mental ward at mercy. yeah i cheated but you didn't even know until three months after the break up, you dumped me the day after i started my period and the Monday after my birthday. i guess you had enough sense to stay with me until you found out i wasn't pregnant, right? you act like I'm this horrible person and I'm not half as bad, yeah i fuck you over a lot now, but you shouldn't have fucked me over then. i was thirteen and i was ready to give me whole fucking life to you, in fact i pretty much did... i can't change that. sure i moved on but I've always come back to you whether i needed you as a friend or more, its not like you accepted me with open arms, i had to work for you each time and you know it. yes i met lochaln and yes he made me happy, but what we did when we were together shouldn't concern you because you gave me up to begin with. it's not my fault that it was too late for another chance for you. it's not like you didn't threaten to kill my whole family every time i did something wrong and it's not like you didn't try to force me to do things when I'd already said no, how many times was i against the wall and you wouldn't let me leave? how many times did i have to hit you more than once just to let me go to class or go home? still how many times did i brush it off because you meant so fucking much to me? you can't pretend that you never mattered to me because you and i both know that you did. we've hated each other off and on for the past two years and you can't say that you actually mean your threats of leaving me forever now, i just wouldn't believe you. yes i was with luc, and maybe i hurt you a little but lets not act like you didn't pull this shit with me. you told me everything about you and Dewie, the shower, how she was sitting wrong so it wouldn't go in, more than I've ever told you about anyone i was ever with. all the while you knew how i felt with you while you were telling me this and rubbed it in my face just because you could. i didn't leave you, i still felt the same way i felt before and you were over me, then i hear about you and her. I'm sure that the only reason your pissed about luc is because you could only ever date me, because you tried for everyone else and it didn't work, and because you regret giving me up and me being happy with someone who wasn't you after you broke my fucking heart. yeah me and him are done now and I'm left pissed and confused once again but I'm sure you love that, it just makes it easier for you to call me a whore and tell me i never mattered like you always do. honestly, with the way you've treated me in the past couple years i hope i do make you want to kill yourself. i hate you with every fucking fiber of my being and if i never saw your fat ass again I'm sure id be just fine, but you're not getting off as easily as that. if i want to toy with you i fucking will, if i want to tell you i love you just to make you happy then crush your spirit a day later i will, if i want to break you down until there's nothing left to break i will. so bitch, whine, cry, i don't care it doesn't matter. i mean why should it matter when you're just going to die screaming my name in a pool of your own blood someday anyhow?