the winters so cold, summers over too soon, lets pack our bags and settle where palm trees grow.

so im watching my all time favorite movie, pan's labyrinth. it may be in spanish but i cant imagine the english version would be any good. im a nerd for watching it im sure, but its the most creepy fairy tale of all time, plus it won awards so im not the only one who thinks so. it just makes me think a lot. i miss when i was little and id see peter pan and be convinced i could fly, or watch halloween town and think that im a witch that hasnt grown into my powers yet. walking around in the forest alone with butterflies in my stomach hoping id come across something that would put me in danger but dreading it at the same time because i was scared. i wanted an adventure, the more i think about it the more i realize i still do, im just to lazy to look for one. then again ive never found one while looking, and i never found one while waiting for one to bite me in the ass, what the fuck am i supposed to do? im bored with this and i want to panic, i want to be scared so much that i piss, i want a rush. i guess thats why i want to go to the park at midnight, i want to go to a real haunted house, i want to be chased by some crazy hillbilly murder or some mutants in a cave. i guess i just want to say i survived something incredibly dangerous then move onto the next rush. i need to do something i wouldnt normally do this halloween, maybe ill find some satanists and do rituals with them or go up to hummel with friends to get the shit scared out of us. itd be fun i think, im getting tummy aches thinking about it, we should most definitely go.