so take a step back, you know I'm there.

im proud to say that the only contact i made with my grandparents today after trying to be woken up was going downstairs to get food. i was talking to baylen and morgan the whole time. today was really a forgiving day, i forgave baylen for being a douche, and i forgave cody for the same reason, although i was as hostile as i thought i would be this morning. people pissed me off a lot, cindy did, luc did, sean did, nearly everyone except cody and baylen... i even got mad at people i havent talked to in weeks. stress does things i guess... i think i may be on the verge of freaking out like i did all last summer, crying and shaking on my kitchen floor until i puke, on the phone with ben, josh, or graeme. im not looking forward to this at all. i posted too many blogs today, and though i got pissed a lot i had good conversations with certain people. it was an amazing shitty day, possibly one of the best ive ever had. im thinking bed sounds nice right about now.