and i want these words to make things right, but its the wrongs that make the words come to life.

i accidentally slept in by 20 minuets and was only 2 minuets late to school... thats record worthy, i got chewed out by my grandmother just the same, this bitch is intensely fucking annoying. she never leaves me alone when i need to be left alone, and shes never there when i need to talk to her about something, its pissing me off more than you know. all honesty, i want my grandpa to die first so that when my grandma dies i get this wonderfully scary old people house in this ghetto neighborhood, i want it to happen soon, and things are looking up for me. it might be bad that i wish death on the two people i live with, but i hate them and im selfish.

got to school, homeroom was the same. scott and his little friends picking on some freshman, me talking to emily a tiny bit but never to anyone else. i kept getting messages and it was making me feel weird because there were to people sitting behind me, is it bad i worry that people read my email? i dunno, i just tend to be very protective of my conversations with some people. german next, i remember actually learning something which was new, but i still fucked around the whole time with the freshman and texted jake jake.

geometry i did pretty much nothing, i was kind of in the zone enough to where i took note and payed attention, but at the same time i was texting and messing with brandon babes arm hair. i was supposed to have lit after that but i skipped and went to hang out with tyler instead. he had some pretty intense conversations that we made funny and talked about nothing, i gave alex mason his shirt back, then luc came to see me in the last like 2 minuets of the mod. after that i was supposed to have earth space but i skipped that too, i dont have my project done like i thought i would and i dont want to get chewed out... maybe i can drop sometime... no never mind. we messed around with a iced tea bottle and mainly just messed around.

i had music next and i refuse to skip that class, the teachers are too nice to me to be a bitch back to them. i sat, did nothing avery wanted us to do, and laughed at peoples weird expressions the whole time while spacing off. i didnt even realize i didnt talk to luc until he brought it up, i was actually spprised that i didnt. i had design after that, i got done with my line drawing and now i hae to shade, but this stupid skirt thingy is killing me. chrissy poo and jasmine were in that class, it went by fairly fast.

i had my actual assigned lunch time right after design, i sat with sean eric kennedy johnnie danielle alex cindy and alicia part of the time. i got a bit of johnnies ice cream and watched him finger skate board, then me and cindy talked in real life as well as first class like we did the other two mods i was "open" today. i found out a lot of shit that was going on, you know me im out of the loop.

mod got over and we left, saw kiki and stayed with her for a while in the hall, got hugs. luc came up behind me and i got more hugs, then we walked part of the way to our classes together through the gym and to the stairs where i got another hung accompanied by a kiss, i was happy. i went to world history and did nothing the whole time really except listen to people give half ass speeches about teen rights, i think we all got full credit.

acp was good today, i couldnt get a signal in the ss imc so that bitch goodall let me go to the media and work. i actually did work and i got a lot done while listening to breathe carolina and messaging people via first class. the mod got over and i was open, i sat at the corner table and i hated every second of it. its not that i hate sitting there, its that i hate the people who sit there at certain times. when its donovan and steph im cool, when its abby and kegan i want to pull out a ak-47 and shoot the whole school. talked to lauren, she want to hang out and get fancy, suppirse supprise.

after school i was cold, i hung out for a while and then we went to see freshman bens glow int he dark shirt, we locked him in a band locker. i asked amir if he was leaving because i didnt exactly want to walk out alone, he ended up grabbing my ass and boobs so i kicked him pretty damn close to the nuts, he called me a bitch but that fucking ugly freshman should have known better, mess with me and i am a bitch you dumb shit. got bitched at by my mom for no reason really, she called down after she realized she was ranting about nothing and that i wasnt replying. talked like normal about clothes and the concert tonight, she isnt going but i dont blame her, the songs suck we suck and she cant hide from my grandparents in the gym. got home, said hi, walked upstairs and now im writing this.

i have to be at school by 7:15 in nice clothes, which means shower, find things that actually match, and try to look decent for this concert. i just want to sleep and thats it fuck life, i need a new battery for my phone because mine wont hold a charge for long, my phone lasted half the day which was a sad preview of the next few months until i can get a new one. apparently luc got his computer taken away, about the last thing we used to talk after everything else got taken away, looks like its school only until its back. blah life's a bitch at times.