almost the exact same as a coke withdrawal.

i knew this would happen

ditch someone for another person

ditch the other person for the next

and ditch the next for the newest

then have the newest get grounded

because of you

Halloween plans

i have none

i don't mind

I'll sleep

maybe scare little kids who piss me off

who knows

talked to luc

the conversation consisted of this

me asking if the Halloween plans are going to happen

him saying no and telling me hes grounded

me feeling bad and asking if we could talk

him saying no and logging off

it could be because hes grounded

or because he felt like being a dick

i said this

"okay

i was going to ask if i should give up

not try and get you back

not end up hurt again

and not do the crap we've been doing

i don't know if you've gotten off because you don't want to talk

or because you're grounded

but I'm giving up

i like you but you...

i don't know

if you ever want me back try

if not

then don't

maybe we'll still be cool..."

he wont try to get me back

i don't expect it

i cried after i sent it

talked to Ben and Gabe

Gabe says good for me

Ben says he could come back

Ben told me to ask him out

considering i already lost him

he says i cant lose him more

plus there's no wondering

there's yes and date or no and closure

he's right but I'm thinking no

I'm going to go to bed

cry

then sleep

then wake up

cry

then fall asleep again

Halloween weekend is fucked up now

thanks karma

thanks luc

thanks life