you asked for it, you paid for it, get what you deserve.

i dont know what to say. today was shitty and it could have been better if i didnt worry so much. people keep pissing me off though, ive said before that i hate people saying "aww im here for you when you need me" and "do you want to talk about it?" stop being so fucking nice. honestly i dont want to talk about it and i could care less if youre there for me or not. if i say i had a shitty day dont ask me why, or what happened, just leave it at that and change the fucking topic dip shit. you read my blogs, you always tell me when you read them like i asked you not to, why the fuck are you people so damn dumb. i dont even want to be friends with half of you anymore. im not being nice right now but its because youre fucking idiots. im on a ignoring spree, i have been for a while, piss me off you get ignored for at least a week or two.

im sick i feel like shit and i dont want to deal with people. ive said this all before. ben i will do what i want when i want to. dont tell me what to do with people i like, if i wanted to ask him out id have asked him out, i dont ask people out ever. youre pressuring me to do stuff all the time, things you think will be right for me. first you say he's a douche and a whore and its all a lie, now youre telling me to ask him out before i lose him forever. youre freaking me out man, just let me do things my way, im a big girl. i enjoy taking thing slowly, thats something you wouldnt know though. i want to be your friend, but stay out of my head when it comes to things in my life, seriously.

turns out everything i was worrying about wasnt even worry worhty. theres not a big secret im just a little paranoid. he wasnt making her laugh purposely he was just being a dumb ass, he deleted his texts because hes had problems with that before (its probably a good thing he did too because i would have done something bitchy). in all honesty im happy we didnt talk today, it was an off day and i probably would have snapped at him if hed grabbed my bun. maybe we'll talk tomorrow, but i have a feeling that im going to feel even worse by then. first class is good enough for now, im tired. nothing will probably happen before bed ut if it does you know where it'll be.