this is more than just ily, its more like i love you. <3

so last night josh called me back, we talked until i got dressed to go to school. after four months of telling me, he got me to tell him, the best part is that i meant it. He makes me smile when im sad and pisses me off all the time but it feels right.

~some of you might think im flip flopping but me and josh have had a thing for a year so fuck off.~

if he can get off work he's taking me to homecoming and he's for sure taking me to formal. happy times. ha ha, anyway, i went to school and laid on anthony because i was so tired. then i was open first mod, hung out with people.

probably failed a math test, had to write stuff in lit, then i was open again. german wasnt bad, me and jake had made up until he got his phone taken away while texting me. he totally blamed me too. we text in german all the time and its not my fault he cant hide his shit better. so then in earth space i got in trouble for texting the phone jake didnt have just to say sorry. i didnt care though, i fell asleep with jasmine in design ha ha. i totally forgot most of the day after that. mod 14 i went to the cafeteria and fucked around with people.

after school i got mega hugs from zach, he was worried about me because of last night. my mom came, i told her about what my aunt said. she agreed with her and said i was blowing up, she also said obesity was a problem... im not fucking fat, if anything im just starting to hit chubby. i cried a lot. i told her i hated her and i never wanted to see her or the rest of the fucking family again. shes no longer picking me up from school. she doesnt want to go to family functions and thinks shes going to move out of state to get away. i dont hate her, i dont want to fight her, i'll always love her, but right now i just dont like her. i will kill myself if she ever really leaves. that is the truth.

i went to sleep, woke up to a text from jake saying he wasnt mad. then i went to sleep again. texted him and this other number. some guy i dont know texted me... weird. apparently he's 17 and goes to burke, and hes black. hes talking about busting a nut on me... i told him to go the fuck away and leave me alone... that didnt happen. fucking creepy people are gross.

more later...