This is the fall; this is the long way down

ive been a bitch for a while now, maybe paranoid and bitchy is better. i keep saying how i hate you guys and how i dont want you to care about me, but honestly it makes me happy you do, i just get annoyed really easily... you know this. somethings just been wrong with me lately and i dont know how to take nice-ness. i really do love you guys, like with all honesty and truthful-ness, i fucking love you kids/not kids. i should stop worrying about stupid stuff and be happy that i have what i have, which is you guys behind me 100% of the way. most of us have been through so much with each other and i hate that i was just trying to leave it all in a moment of angst. bagh! im sorry, like really, really sorry.

today i stayed home sick, im like a boy going through puberty but i can control my erections. i slept until about 1 then got on first class, checked my mail... well part of it, then puked. gah its so gross, i keep coughing shit up too, luc laughed at me but his dumb ass is going to get the same thing. i cmae back into my room then checked the rest of my mail. i got a message from donovan, its a new sticky of his that he made. it has a bunch of people's faces in it and on the side it says forever, im in it... i was super emotional because of this. i saved it to my computer then kept reading my mail, i had a message from alexandria the attachment name was ashley header, i opened it and it was a header for my blog, its incredibly cute. at this point i was still emotional from the other picture so i'll admit i did cry a tiny bit, but they were tears of joy :) gah i fucking love my friends. these are both going on my blog forever, i just need to figure out how to make the header my official header. even though im sick, its a happy day.