dear cody,

i miss you so fucking much! youre honestly my best friend, i told you everything and you were the only one who was really there for me all hours of the night. ive cried with you on the phone more times than i can remember because of guys, friends, family, everything. you fixed everything with just a few words in your ghetto north Omaha accent. i hate that you left for the marines, i hate that i had to find someone else to vent to in my times of need, i hate that you left for boot camp while i was having fun time. i never got to say bye, i never got to tell you happy birthday. you have no idea how hard everything is without you there to make it better, you being the funny ass creeper you were made being sad being happy. not a day goes by that i dont want to hear you say "so uhm, what kind of underwear are you wearing?" jokingly of course. please dont change while youre gone, ill go insane, if youre not the perfectly ghetto white boy best friend you were when you left i will kill everyone at that damn training facility with my bare hands. its been about 2 months and as you can see im not taking any of this very well, soon enough itll be a year or two, youll only be coming home for christmas and i wont get to see you. i honestly think the best decision youve ever made was the worst. i know i havent lost you forever, but its been 2 months and i still cry when ever i see a marines commercial, youll be gone long enough to drive me insane. so much has happened, theres so much stuff i need to tell you, good and bad. i need to stay up until 3 am talking about everything and nothing, i need my best fucking friend back. i keep thinking of the past two summers weve had together and how much better they were because of you... if you dont come back... i dont know. i need you kid, i love you with everything i have, everything i could ever home to be, and everything i ever was, because youre my best friend. i dont know when i'll stop writing these stupid letters youll never get, but i know it wont be soon.

come home so i can stop crying all the time, please.

Ashley

the song.