i havent moved from the spot where you left me, this must be a bad trip.

so i didnt go to school today. i really couldnt wake up which is sad considering that i napped after school then slept the whole night through when i went back to bed at 12. im sure that my mom will say to start taking my depression pills again but i dont need those i need coffee, just give me coffee and chocolate and im sure id be fine. i slept until 11:30 and im still tired, i havent got up to do anything so im still sitting in bed in underwear and a tee shirt, im so fucking lazy. i really have everything i need here, chips, remote, computer, backpack, water... and when i have to pee i could always try to aim it in a sprite can i have by my bed ha ha ha.

so since i didnt go to school im grounded for the weekend which only means i cant go anywhere... i think one weekend where i did nothing would be nice actually, and my grandma wont call me in so i'll have iss sometime next week, im going to try for one of the half days. i kept getting called a bitch again this morning, im a bitch for staying home, im a bitch for not eating a sloppy joe, im a bitch for going to westside... she needs to find new words like cunt or something. i kept thinking, im not a bitch right now id be a bitch if i slit your fucking throat though, which may be kind of bad to think but it was true.

i had a dream while i was asleep that i was dating some guy and he dumped me for that freshman sarah, needless to say i shoved him in a pile of boxes at the grocery story then went to her house and beat her ass. she was crying about how i hit her nose ring and while i walked out i said something about hoping her bruises heal soon, she came back out with a bat so i drove away fast in a limo, that was sweet. i guess i understand why i had that dream, i mean there were guys that i liked or didnt like that i used to flirt with all the time and cuddle up to, then she came around... i still could but it wouldnt be the same. she always has to sit on people and be an attention whore with her attitudes, even when im in a bad mood or sad i dont freak out like her, plus who falls asleep and has people carry them places, she looked like she was about to get date raped. the point is, i like her sometimes, but i hate her most of the time.

i think im very hostile today, that might be bad... guess its just another reason why its good i stayed home. i wish i could have went just to kick that gabby chicks ass though, then again with the mood im in i would have kicked her in the face and she would have died or went into a coma or something. meh im just going to watch 31 days of halloween and eat pringles until i feel like getting up.