my dear boys, ive been angry with you lately, but some of you have been perfect angels. its only right that i dedicate a blog to you, whether im angry or happy. i dont know how its going to be, but i hope it'll be good. here it goes...
zach; youre 14, no need to set your whole fucking life around this one girl. you love her but zach, you dont know what love is yet. i know she's your best friend, and she's the only one you can talk to, and she has great music taste, and you just feel right with her, and all of the stupid things youre going to back it up with so stop trying to make her sound better. i dont care if she's a honest to god fucking angel, she's hurt you in the past, she's hurt you recently, why wouldnt she hurt you in your future. i honestly dont know how long it will be before she says one stupid thing, you cant take it, and decide "hrm im going to be like ryan call and try to kill myself." except youre smarter than ryan and it'd probably work. you guys made out at the mall, great, im pissed. im still jealous and just because i decided i cant like you doesnt mean ive stopped, plus it doesnt help the fact that the root of all evil her tongue in your mouth. since then youve been happy but really fucking stupid. wow sarah and skylar were biting your neck like whores and you wanted to tell me because if id been there you think i would have joined in. i wouldnt have, id have called them ugly skanks and walked away. sure id bite your neck too, but im not a joiner to youre little three some. i guess its all jealousy and over protective parent syndrome, i dont want you hurt and i dont want you whoring around. i dont care if its all fun and games its gross and id rather not know, honestly if my body gets stiff and i turn the other way when sarah sits on you, how do you expect me to react you her biting your neck? stop being a dumb ass, use your brain, its what its there for.
benny wenny; im not mad at you, things have been really awkward though lately. we havent talked in a while because of the whole, you being in my relationship bubble, thing. youre probably going to be mad because yours is short but i cant help it, theres nothing really good or bad to say. main thing i guess, i know youre always there for me no matter if its so bad the bones showing or just a scrapped knee. i guess the more i think of it the more i realize that if we were freshman, id be zach and youd be megan, except i dont love you like he loves her, strictly friends at this point. i guess i feel like i need you in my life, i dont mind hurting your feelings and being completely blunt about everything, youre the only person i can do that with, plus if i ever need a confidence boost you cant tell me how great i am in... couch/floor/counter/wall. ben you know im always here for you too, even if you have to tiptoe around my feelings sometimes im still here for you.
koda bear; its great that youre not fucking up our friendship, but its not so great that you are fucking up at school. we just became friends again and im never going to see you around, this sucks. you were my best friend, then you were nothing to me, and i thought i loved you, but you just hurt me. our history is so confusing and fucked up, but im happy youre back now, even if you do make fun of me for the guys i like. i cant make the fact that you fucked up go away, i cant stop bringing it up either, you know how i am. i used to call you crying and youd be laughing with me about inverted nipples 10 seconds later, i called you when i was at the end of my rope and we made jokes about me wanting to kill myself. they really dont make friends like you anymore, im happy to say i got the last one in the store. lets not fuck everything up again, okay?
cody; i could say more but you got a whole post just about you, so im just going to say the simple things. i miss you. i hate you being gone for so long, i cry whenever i think of you, i need my best friend back now. martica misses you, your mom misses you, i bet even your fat ass brother misses you. i love you more than almost anything because you are by far my number one friend. i know youll be back soon and im excited, but yore just going to leave again anyway. summing it all up, we love you and miss you dont die.
joshy; youre a fucking idiot and im mad at you for it... thats what you think. in all honesty i dont want to hurt you. i know you love me and i dont want to have to tell you i like other people and i have a life without you. i know youll say youre fine with it because youre a big boy and youre 18 blah blah, but i know its hurting you. i lied and said i was going to tell luc i dont like him just because i could hear the hurt in your voice. me being mad at you and hurting you that way is just easier than the alternative. im sorry but im not going to stop, and i cant talk to you for a while.
donovan; technically you have a penis... but youre not a boy really. i love you to death though and im always here for you. i better stop before this turn into a really long post about someone who isnt even a boy. haha donovan youll get your post soon enough :)
luc; i like you a lot, but i dont know if you really qualify as one of my boys yet. we havent been though a lot of drama, we wernt good friends before we started liking each other, and we dont tell each other everything. re-apply after ive been crazy bitch, if youre still around. cant wait for the movie tonight though.
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