yeah you talk shit, think i care?

i dont blog, i dont use punctuation, but i can get my point across all the same.

i guess this little bubble(thats what i now call my posts) will be about me, because i matter, because i made this sexy kitten blog. so uhm, im Ashley, not assley, not ash, not crazy half black chick. i try to fit in, i mean things would be so much easier if i could, less drama, no more trying to find who i am, no more dating problems and shit like that, but i dont. i hate myself most of the time and i dont think before i do things, i often find myself in shitty situations with good people who actually matter to me. i want things to work out all of the time but they never do.

~i just noticed everything with me is dont, and never, and cant, and bullshit stuff like that. maybe im a negative Nancy.~

anyhow, im a cry baby, i dont handle stress well, when i have breakdowns its not good. i have nobody to go to anymore with the important stuff, two people in the world know everything about me and they're both gone. a part of me wants them back but i cant/wont go back to either of them, they arent worth my time. im fifteen and for now im a sophomore, i honestly think i want to drop out and jump off a fucking cliff. i hate myself a lot of the time, im only happy with myself when i feel like somebody else. i dont have a date to homecoming because nobody wants me, i really just suck at life.

i dont live with my mom anymore, she... wasnt a fit parent. i love her to death, i would kill myself if she died, id kill anyone who hurt her, but i cant live with her. i live with my grandparents and i kinda hate them, they're stupid and old and blah!

~i dont like the way this is turning out, it seems so emo and whiny but i guess this is how i think, sounds stupid in words, when i read how i talk i hate it... lets add it to my list. fuck this bubble!~

so today, well yesterday... the 3rd of September, was kind of a shitty day. i swam, almost saw masons dick, accidentally stole alexs ipod, and made this chick think i was zach while i bitched at her via text message. heh, oh well.

anything good happen today Ashley? i slept and found crescent rolls which i ate like a beast. mmm and cinnamon life cereal, yum!

i got the porn disc out of my computer after like 50 trys... just so that i could put it back in. one thing i have to say... those chicks are fugly. i dont have much to say right now, im tired and since im a loser im gonna post this shit and watch some bleach. yay?

fuck this bubble,

zebras dont moo,

ashleyyy :)

btw: if this makes no sense what so ever im sorry, im not thinking right now.